light fixtures, awkward situations, and a lack of sobriety

well, lets start with yesterday. i played basketball for six hours, ate a fuck of a lot of nachos, and some ice cream, and some populous, and some chess, and some backgammon, and some failed attempts at launching our water rocket (new design in progress) and two more hours of basketball, and runon sentences!

so that was fun.

then today i ran the mile because i said i was sick on friday (well i was) and got my BEST TIME EVER. it was because i was allowed to run by myself and when i was halfway through and saw the time on the stopwatch i got pissed and ran faster. sub seven, first time ever. yay. then.. after school was a little weird. nick still wont talk to me. maybe he ACTUALLY hates me. that would be cool(er). well.. i dont actually have a lot to say. i could rant, but i dont really have the time or a rantation-worthy subject.

i need to stop being a hypocrite.

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the REASON i dont do rants is because everyone who reads this hears them all..
i think.
fine, fine, ill start.

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its not going well

new blog titles, nostalgia, and friendship bracelets

i just read a bunch of old kids books that evoke such strong memories. damn.

i am a jerk.

ooh, new song for myspace.

i dont have much to say.
i just came on to change the title. it really is important, seriously.

dm, mb. its symmetrical. you dont know how ironic that is. im not telling, either. pie might get it. she might lie, too.

i miss you terribly.
lp. i miss you too.

i will talk to mrs. henderson when she gets back, if not email her, because i can play that song really well. im excited. i think im gonna make it. i cant stop listening to akon. well, i can, but all my moms kids LOVE HIM. the ones she teaches, i mean. their little angelic voices singing "smack that" and not knowing what it means.. ah. so cool.

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for some reason i cant stop thinking about my senior sketch. i feel so lonely.
mm.

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nina: i felt it was time for my inner flower girl to come out and say hello.

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i realized i never really talked about what happened today. this beautiful day.

my mom woke me up at ten and we walked to the coffee shop called the ugly mug, not bombadills, and i got a coffee with a shot of hazelnut.. and a bananarama. its a toasted bagel with cream cheese, banana slices, honey, and cinnamon piled on top. the cream cheese is delicious with fruit, or orange marmalade. she thought it would be gross and got a plain raisin bagel but changed her mind when she had a bite. so laden with several bagels and two good books, we sat in the theater chairs next to a cool table. this place is amazing, they have a ledge on the entire perimeter of the room that is covered in old books. so when i finished my stephen king, i read a malcolm x autobiography, as told by some other guy.. really interesting. its in first person but its very factual and informative about him.. in a way that the real person wouldnt have been. no cool quotes or anything. whatever.

then james and i built a water rocket. we got an eight foot plastic flourescent light cover about two inches in diameter, and two foot square pieces of sticky, thin, plastic floor tile. finishing price: $5.87. not bad. so then, we took it to the shop and cut the tube into a four and a half foot piece, and used the top of a coke bottle to make a nose. we stuck the two squares of tile together, and sliced them diagonally to make two right triangles. we cut one halfway from the top and the other halfway from the bottom and stuck them together, so we had an object not unlike a waterbomb base - yes, origamees, unite - with four fins. we put four notches in the plastic tube for the fins to slide into, and held it all together with packing tape. it looks pretty badass. a water rocket works by filling a container about a third of the way with water and pressurizing it, where it flies up in the air.

we made one before out of a two liter.. but when it got dark and we put sparklers into the fins for a bit of a show, we had our best flight ever. but the wind caught it and threw it into the nearest tree. shards of melting plastic proceeded to fall down on us, as the tree caught fire. it went out, though.

but anyways. we put a hole in a rubber stopper, because the bottom is the top of a coke bottle too.. and fed a small tube up through that. the whole thing is airtight, so when we fill it up tomorrow and hook it up to the air compressor.. i think its gunna be pretty sweet. its gunna fly high, too, we will have to go to my grandmas house. we are going to put a strip of masking tape on it and paint it black. the tape is so that we can see the water level when we pull it off. hopefully we wont have another funeral, because the piece of the old fin nailed to the tree fell down.

that was a long edit. i hope you all comment the NEW one, even if you delete the old comment. you all. ha. how comical.

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new links

once again, its never like we thought it was

oh well.
at least somebody believes me.

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i wish marion would come on
i got a book today
and its not the one for meghna
i really need to go downtown
and i got a present for marion, because it is her birthday on monday. random present. and no, i am not telling you what it is.

things are going okay, mostly because its such a fantastic day. i used to like winter better. but waking up when it is dark, then not being able to tell where the sun is behind the huge clouds that make us all SLEET'd? no.

i have been sort of moody
james described it as me turning into a total jerk
i almost told him that he was being a hypocrite
but took his advice
and i am being a hypocrite anyways, so thats a crazy maze of fantastically stupid emotions.
i would say i hate people, but since i am one of them, i will say i hate the way people who arent geniuses think. not that i am a genius. not that i actually feel that way. go figure. i think. never understood that expression.

RAMBLATION'd.

anyway. see you monday. comment. i want some response to what i say. i need some support.

sad songs and math class revelations

well, thats over.

we are still talking and we are going to be really good friends, and its not just a promise, its happening already. it turned out better than i could have hoped. i also did some stupid shit on myspace but that was just me not thinking and kind of caught up in being confused, like i usually am.

not to make excuses

something else is apparently starting, though i cant really see that. stop spreading rumors, you tools. nobody loves you.

that wasnt to you, it was to you *points at the guilty one*

everyone should stay after school more so i can do more than sleep and talk about random drama with meghna, not that it isnt fun.

lacrosse seems like the most boring sport to play, ever. and dont tell me i am wrong, because i know.

i do this thing where i ask a stupid question and i know i am wrong because countless other smarter people have proved it and people cant tell me why, and i get frustrated. because i know i am wrong, but why. whatever. just me being crazy. like everyone else.

hey, pie. frou frou. that one song. those lyrics. ha. sorry.

i think i am bringing my guitar tomorrow. if i can convince james. which would be cool. i want to because he could just pick me up and take me to my lesson. and i can even practice a little beforehand. anyways.

thanks, people.

decisions, sunglasses, and dead people in the forum

well my mom just told me that she was mentioned featured on someones blog, and also in someones blog in spain. but the spain one was just a picture. either way it is really cool.

pretty soon, you guys will all be asking me a lot of questions. i hope. because i dont want you to get some skewed reality. thats a picture with a lot of symbolism in it. and then there is a lot in it for me, especially. anyways.

this isnt going to be a long one

i am finally getting some new gym shoes, wont that be grand? and maybe some shiny pants.

after school was fantastic. i can think clearly now. thanks, kitty and meghna. you guys rock.

sudoku and sudoky

for some reason my fingers always want to type sudoky. weird, huh?

i have been playing it a lot lately. oh wow the time and date thing is messed up. its really 5:05. anyone know where to change that?

my left middle finger is ridiculously cold compared to the rest of my body.

so anyhoo, i am waiting for my aunt to pick me up because my dad is driving from ohio to here, staying the night, and driving back with me where i will stay for a week. and tonight we are going to stay up with my aunts boyfriend and play videlo games all night. i never play video games, EVER, and i will be staying up til 2 every night now.. yay!

i wont be online much because the computer is in my parents bedroom and it would be both awkward and annoying for them for me to be iming while i was there. i mean, obviously, really.

the ortho appointment sucked, although the girl was nice. james is making this DELIICIOUS LOOKING AND SMELLING SOUP and i wont be able to have any because i cant eat for three hours and i will be gone in that time. oh well. i sort of redid my myspace, with the help of lolicious, so everyone should check it out.

but im planning on having lots of fun. except for the fact that people wont shut up about dc [not their fault, really] and will say things like "so what was your favorite? did you see the washington monument? did you see this thing? i hope there werent GIRLS in your room.. see the thing about the girls: they know there were no girls in my room. they arent stupid. they just want to hear themselves say it. maybe they get sexually excited from the thought of a girl being in someone elses room. i dont know.

if you are lucky i will call you. and if i dont call you, give me your number. i probably miss the hell out of you [secretly i just TRICKED you because now you dont want me to have your number because you are worried i wiill stalk or rape you [but i just TOLD you so you dont know what to think now.. oh jesus, what will you do NOW, oh dear]]. it felt good to wait to punctuate that sentence until the very end. i bet meghna was all set to get the old razor out from the dusty shelf [and she will because this is about to be one hell of a run on sentence], where she remembered it would be from the LAST time she used it, when i ended a sentence with a preposition, which out of my brain and onto the page it had come out from.

well, bye, i guess.

lucky smells and retrospective wishing [looking back]

i went to the mall today with marion and maya and viggy which was fun, actually. marion and maya wanted to go into abercrombie which smelled terrible and made viggy and i gag so we went and got a smoothie, then lost maya and marion, then went into abercrombie and almost choked to death trying to find them (which we didnt) then we did at american eagle.. i dont know we just walked around then i caught the bus and went the wrong way.. all in all it took me about two hours to get home. whatever. it happens.

we went to my grandmas [where else] for dinner and i played some chess and played a lot of guitar and played a lot of the being bored on the couch game.

speaking of couches.

pie was also involved because when i was waiting for half an hour for my bus we attempted to have a phone conversation. she also left me a really awesome voicemail which i SAVED, thank you very much. [youre welcome].

the word cribbage just popped into my head.

save a horse, people.
$3+, p13. $3+.