24 June 2007

this was.. wonderful.

no sarcasm, either. it was so cool.

it looks boring, but it only gets boring near the end. here goes.

paddy sent me some "playa hatah" texts today. that was exciting. except i didn't know it was him, so someone else gave me his number. he thought he was so smart, doing it anonymously through a text. he texted me about my obsession with marion and diana [diana, who i really don't like anymore] and how they are all i talk about. because paddy and i are just the closest of friends and we talk all the time. are you puzzled, too? anyways. i only swore once in eight texts and he typed two. mostly he just called me gay and mature stuff like that, but i used actual evidence. you know, the true kind. the type of thing that isn't just shouting "GAY GAY GAY" and that makes him just shut up and stop flattering himself with the notion that i would care about someone afraid to tell me their name. someone with such a lack of creativity. it kind of hurt, that he couldn't put the effort in to think of a better waste of my time than that. it made me really happy, though, because i like laughing at people who try to make me pissed off and fail miserably.

my dad wondered why i was laughing, but i didn't think he would understand.

then i did some work outside. heather is going to paint the bottom of the house [those ugly cinderblocks] so i had to scrape all the chipping paint and sweep all the spiderwebs and grass. that took a while.

but we have a soccer net in our backyard now [i built it!] and it's not full size but it's pretty close. taking about a hundred shots a day has made me a lot better. i don't know how long it will last if i stop, so i'm planning on not stopping until the soccer season starts. i'm thinking about having someone help me move it into the unused field next door. then i would have a little bit of room. it's still a lot of fun, though. whatever.

18 June 2007

ohio

not much to say, really.
reading, soccer, hanging out.. video games..
i didn't know jenny read my blog. thanks for telling me! sheesh. anyways.


why is the word "suicide" used so loosely lately?
not by me, jenny. don't worry.

seriously though. not to say it's not serious. it just seems like such a viable option to most people. how profoundly fucked up.

&&

i didn't just write it for you. i just care, that's all. <789 "D

01 June 2007

firsts and lasts

oh, wow. today was mixed but very mostly good. after school was fun. we played soccer for a while and that was cool. i can't wait for the summer team in ohio. then i mostly hung out with meredith which was cool. we sat up in a tree while we waited for my mom to come and get me and talked for a while about something besides drama. i have to say, sitting up there with her in the breeze and just talking like friends made me really happy. taking a break from the stress and stuff.

then i had my last guitar lesson for a while. stupid ohio. i mean, not really, but yeah.

i'm chewing on a guitar pick. i'm really not stressed, but subconsciously i might be. i gotta learn english. i hope i don't break this, it's really nice.

i have been listening to a lot of modest mouse and soul coughing, playing a lot of jazz, and trying new things. i like it so far.

nina made me cookies today to cheer me up, but i have to say they weren't entirely necessary. a bit embarassing like HERE JOSH THESE ARE SO YOU DON'T GET ALL DEPRESSED. not that i didn't appreciate it.

i talked to the cool 7th grade lauren for a while today.. first time we talked for more than like 30 seconds. that was cool. she's really cool. cool.